My Life

The Truth

2011-04-19T05:21:00.000-07:00

Last night i din update because i was realy afraid... because she say the truth i wont hope to know... what is the truth... i realy very afraid until my body was trembling and now i still cant stop thinking what is the bad truth... my hateful god can u please dun always test me and her... pla this time give us both a miracle please....................

Never Give Up

2011-04-17T09:13:00.000-07:00

2day will be my last day to write because i wan started to study and repair the relationship... i knw is very hopeless i do like this but i willing to try because these few day i keep thinking the happy thing happen with her i remember she give me chance to be her fake bf,i remember when she say i can be her real bf,i remember the first time we date,i remember the first time we go to concert,i remember many thing i realy dun wan to lose her... i know life will goes on but i realy hope it can restart even cannot restart i also willing the time stop... i realy very miss her...

The Same Answer

2011-04-16T08:10:00.001-07:00

In this world the god realy does not exist... now i realy wanted to find the god and fuck him up every say we sincerely pray to god,god will answer our prayers but i just wish i get a second chance... y U dun give me why u just make a miracle for my life... i realy hate u... FUCK YOU!!!!! now my heart realy very pain... but now i have cold down... i have think it again and again i will never give up no matter how she treat me even she feel that i very annoyed or hate me i dun care i just wan a chance to restart every thing...

The Six And The Last Day

2011-04-15T09:17:00.000-07:00

To night is late abit 2 write because i realy very scare 2 write coz it show me that 2molo i will get the answer... say the truth i realy very scare... the feeling is very mixed up because i duno i scare the answer of i scare my MUET exam... god can u please dun torture me like this i realy very anxious and frustrated... this whole week i think of many things the good things and the things that i done that make her sad say the truth i realy have given many chance... and if she realy dun love me she wont give me so much of chance... but what i did is jus keep making her say and now she dispointed to love... i realy wan 2 say to her im sorry i realy dun deserve to be treated so good... i feel very guilt now... god i promise if tomorrow she give me a new chance i will try my best to make her happy... and god if u realy exist please have mercy with us why u always testing us... is that because last time on of us has done something that u dun like... at last i wish again if god if u realy exist plz make a miracle for me please i never wish everything from u and i never be bad except my month last to talk people but i beg u can u give me this miracle... please...

The Fifth Day Without Her

2011-04-14T08:36:00.000-07:00

today at my school the war has finnaly begin and i get attack during i tt say the truth now i did not care whats happening what i care is the answer i will get a saturday... say truth can i realy forget her if she say NO... or can i follow like what my friend suggest the OLD DIN GO,THE NEW WONT COME say the truth no matter what the answer she gave to me it a ready leave a very big impact or should i say lesson that i wont forget until the day i die... i cant stop thinking back when she say she wanted marry me... at that time i realy happy but the same time i very afraid... i afraid the answer that she give... god y i so dumbass... y i say i will give her 1 week to think... its realy toturing me... god plz i hope u realy can make a miracle happen in my dull life...

The Fourth Without Her

2011-04-13T08:48:00.000-07:00

Today i realy very random because me and my friend make a world war then the most random things is i wrote this "i can predict that a war is coming and it cannot be evade so 2 we should get prepare and what is done is done plz dun look back plz be strong may god wit us" am i starting the war i realy want to know but today i also dun have the mood to study is because of her??? of i just lazy... today say the truth i din think about her but when my friend mention bout her i cant stop thinking about her... y i damn stupid gv her 1 week and promise i wont disturb her i realy very stupid,dumb and idiot.... i realy very miss her i realy wan go to see her...

The Third Day Without Her

2011-04-12T08:43:00.000-07:00

Today aready is the third day and i still din get any news form her is that she realy wan wait until saturday... say the truth today i start not being afraid but im turning become eager wanted to know the answer... is that because that im aready ready??? or i just start acept the truth... that no matter what i do it wont have miracle... by the way in the same day i know the date for my mid year examination... i realy duno whether i realy can study... say the truth it realy pain when giving the love one abandon maybe what i get is because what i did...

(PS:I think this song can express my feeling now...)

The second day without her

2011-04-11T09:23:00.000-07:00

Today is the second day that without her i say i will wait until saturday for the answer but the truth is everyday i also wanted 2 sms her asking her the answer but in the same time i very afraid the answer that she will give...(say the truth i realy very afraid the answer i get is not the answer that i wish to get...)in the second tought altough the answer mayb is the answer i wish should i giving up??? or i should keep stand what i have decide??? now i everyday every night also very afraid and feel very anxious... today is just the second day how i gonna keep myself until saturday... i hope the god i does not belive will make a miracle 4 me.

i has think a slogan 4 my own maybe is realy ironic but "PRAY FOR MY OWN RELATIONSHIP" this is the slogan... hopefully the god will realy exist plz 2 all who maybe will see this blog plz help me PRAY too...

2011-04-03T08:54:00.000-07:00

... nw i realy duno how i feel... i feel wan to cry... i realy duno wheather wat i do is correct or wrong i realy duno... nw i realy understand how does it feel when ur love 1 treat u like shit no matter wat u do is wrong no matter wat u say is wrong... i realy feel wan 2 die but tink another way around i am damb stupid if i just die... i realy hope she can treat me more better although i knw that i nt deserved it... tis is the first time that my heart feel like gving ppl stab.... i realy duno wheather i can keep the promise that i make bcoz nw it realy very hurts....

Am i realy selfish or i realy cant let i go???

2011-04-03T06:13:00.000-07:00

Is realy ironic everyone think me is having a good life but in fact i also facing many problems like now many people evny me that i have a gf but the truth is... not that perfect that i tought maybe i realy dun have the rights to blame anyone acept ME!!!! nw i feel this song very match with my situation....

SICK OF IT!!!

2011-03-07T08:42:00.000-08:00

today i finally lose to my rival i understand that i cant blame any one about the lost is because of my lazyness make this all happen i will wake up because i aready sick of this feeling and i dun wan this feeling apear anymore

Abandoned

2011-02-21T06:22:00.000-08:00

today i fell i very far form my friends because today they having food to let others friend to try but... they even not asking me whether i wan to try it... is not i wan to eat the food is that concern 2 ask that give me feel that im still in the gang maybe i realy is hate by everyone...

The Starting

2011-02-20T05:04:00.000-08:00

Today,is my first day to write a blog n also is my first tim 2 write a blog i hope this blog will hv ppl see.first of all i wan say is bout myself in this world i am nothing... even now im schooling i also is a nothing... even with friends all are fake... maybe is true in this world realy does not have real friends just have people who using other 2 get someting....